[ ooc: Canon/slight AU update time! CWs in post/threads may include: death, major war, teenager fighting on the front lines of said war, climate crisis, mentions of cult indoctrination. Assume this is set in the first day or two after they're let into Rivendell. ]
[ It’s so fast, no one will notice. Cammie vanishes from this world one second, spends almost a year back home, and reappears the next. But that year she lives? It might well be the worst year of Cammie’s life. They always told themselves Nemesis was gone, that there was no way that the Union had replicated gen:LOCK successfully enough to copy him—but they were wrong. They were so very wrong. Eight versus five. Seventeen versus five. Again and again, more Nemesii every time, every fight a little closer to being their last, a little more ground lost to the Union. Eventually, they start fighting each other as much off the battlefield as their enemies on it, and no matter what Cammie does she just can’t seem to stop it. Her team, her family, starts to fall apart.
And, one day, the worst happens. Even as the fights got harder, together they always felt invincible—they came out the other side of a loss beat up and tired and arguing, but alive. Cammie never thought... she never thought any of them would actually die. Naïve, really. So fucking naïve. Kazu dies, right there on the battlefield and Cammie— Cammie just doesn’t know how to cope. So, she runs. She runs, because running is better than staying and dealing with the grief, because maybe there’s something that she can do if she runs. Only, that's when she finds herself back in the Wilderlands.
Physically, very little has changed—she looks a little tireder, maybe, and she’s in hoodie she definitely wasn't before, but there’s no new scars, no new injuries. Nothing is obviously wrong with her. But when the memories flood back in and she realises where she is, again, she pulls her hood over her face and screams.
So some people might hear that even before their mirror comes to life, and Cammie starts speaking. ]
Right, well, here I fucking am again, apparently! Universe cannae even pick what puddle of shite it wants to drown me in, huh? Gotta drag me back and forth like a wee babe on her Mam’s arm, doesn’t matter what I want, now, does it? Oh, no, Cammie doesn’t get a choice, I cannae be trusted with that.
So. Let’s hear it, then. Are you all gonnae yell at me too? I’m sure ye can find a reason, it’s not like I gave the others much of one, unless tryna be a good friend’s reason to scream at me now.
Go on! It’s not like ye can make anything worse!
[ And that’s when she bursts into tears. ]